look at the stars, look how the shine for you

hello it's me again. I'm bored so I thought i'd give you all another update in to my life...

i love summer. It's so beautiful and colourful with all the flowers :) i think its my favourite season. but im not quite sure because i quite like winter. although im not too keen on the cold but some of the best things happen in winter. Like my family are altogether, just for one day, christmas day, and we argue and we get bored and worn out really easily but we're all together. one family. and then theres new years eve, a time to look back upon the past year and remember all the good bits. and then look forward to the next year and how you'll change the bad bits. you make new years resulotions that you rarely ever keep for longer than a week. and you celebrate with friends. New years eve always makes me think about that. how many wonderfully amazing friends i have. and how many more ill make in the years to come. but it also makes me scared of losing the friends i have. right now everyones getting ready to leave and i dont think im ready to lose them. not right yet... but back to winter... i also get to go skiing which is pretty much the most amazing thing ever. i love the snow, and zooming down the mountain and the people i go with our pretty cool too :)


anyway why i was gunna write this blog...
have you ever looked to the sky and saw all those dazzling stars shining bright up there? I love just lying on the ground on my own in complete silence and just staring at the stars wondering... have you wondered what they are? it reminds me of a conversation i had with a friend who told me she believed they were our loved and lost ones watching over us. and i told her i hoped she was right. she then told me she didnt like hope. confused i asked her why and she replied. you either believe something or you dont, hope is a false sense of security, an easy way out. and i suppose she's true. but i believe hope is holding on to something that may not be there but by wishing so much for it, in your heart it becomes true. so i hope that the stars are our loved and lost ones and i hope one day ill be up there joining them again watching down on my family and keeping them safe...


well im off now its half nine and I'm really feeling a good old read tonight although i have no good books left... night